At first I felt I was the body-mind, a small and separate being in the story of my life
Then I felt that I was Consciousness, containing everything, giving rise to everything
Now I don't feel myself . . . at all
Then I felt that I was Consciousness, containing everything, giving rise to everything
Now I don't feel myself . . . at all
Body-mind, Awareness and Consciousness
Q: How do the body-mind, awareness and consciousness relate to one another?
A: Awareness is timeless and eternal, and this gives birth to consciousness. Consciousness is the background for the appearance of the body-mind.
Awareness is what perceives what the consciousness is doing, as it appears and disappears. Just as all objects, including the body-mind are registering in consciousness, so is consciousness in presence-awareness.
The pristine awareness is the basis for consciousness, and consciousness is the basis for all other objects that are perceived by the body-mind.
Consciousness is just a ripple, a wave arising and setting as a vibration or pulsation of presence-awareness. In that ripple, worlds, beings and everything appears and disappears endlessly. This is where all your perceptions of the world appear.
But ultimately all that is, is presence-awareness and consciousness is only a modification of itself.
First you see that you are not the body-mind and identify with the conscious presence or witness perceiving everything. But then you realize from this vantage point, that this is just your universal body, the body of the Absolute and you realize that what you truly are is that which is beyond your consciousness.
You as presence-awareness exist regardless of whether you are conscious or not, it is not limited to any particular state of consciousness, brightly present, untouched by any appearances but intimately connected to all of them, because you realize they are all an expression of you, in fact they are you.
It is your nature, and therefore cannot help but be present no matter what the appearance. It is not affected by any surface appearance. In this very moment, this is all you are. Your true nature exists before anything, before everything. It existed even before your consciousness.